“…I’ve never done this before.”

When I went into the movie, I just said to everybody right away, ‘Look, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, I’ve never done this before. If there’s something I’m doing wrong, please tell me, if there’s a better way to do this, please tell me.'”

Tim Miller

I’m categorizing this post as inspiration, but it’s kind of the opposite of that? I think that Miller’s vulnerability and honesty is refreshing, but like…I can not imagine begin given the opportunity to say something like that. Everything that Pierce says from 1:11 onward is totally chiseled into my psyche. Know everything.

Not knowing feels like such a barrier. It’s what’s held me back for so long.

I’m so grateful for how much is available online to learn. I’m googling the hell out of everything I don’t know so that, at the very least, I have a filing cabinet in my brain of terminology.

I will say, that’s what’s nice about the stage that I’m at right now: I’m alone in making creative choices and decisions. There’s no one to judge or question what I’m doing. The biggest barrier is my undiagnosed ADHD and lack of energy due to about a dozen plates I’m trying to spin while I work on this.

That said, I feel good about this project. There are number of barriers and knowns: I don’t have a budget yet, I don’t have a cast, bodies haven’t been built, crew hasn’t been secured, locations are still to be found, etc, etc, etc.

Despite the above, I can’t help but feel good about it right now. ?